Ok...I am back.

Well all...Um...There isn't really anything to say. 25 days to Christmas...and 31 till my birthday...Yea *Throws confetti into the air and blows noise makers...sarcastically mind.* The onlyinteresting thing to talk about is that...My first full week of work is almost at an end. What do I think of it? You will have to wait for that part. School has been going smooth. The friend's are Ok...they all seem misty...distant...not really there.
Actually, the day was horrible...why? HA! That's my secret. Anyway, I am back...I guess.

ALRIGHT...alright...

Well, due to popular opinion, I guess I have to keep on blogging...So to all of my readers...I'm back!...but don't expect an update for a few days...or maybe a week.

Thanks for your undying support.

Bradfeerd

P.S. Edmunds....Princess Bride. Westley to Count Rugen.

The End...

This blog will be gone...well, not gone but won't be updated again...so, farewell.

Me.

Yeah...Nothing New To Declare...

So, today is the day after Thanksgiving...annnnd I can't find anything to post about. It rained yesterday...so that made me happy. And it wasn't snow this year, this too made me happy. Today is one of THOSE days...very dull and boring. I GUESS I could post on yesterday.

Yesterday, I had lunch at church, as we do every year. I ate a little bit of food...as I always do. Then we went up north to my Uncle's house. There we had dessert, as we always do. Then we went home. I wish we could have just stayed home...It would have been really nice.

I still can't think if anything to blog about. School's been going OK...nothing new there. It continues again on Tuesday. Well I guess that is all from me...

Enjoy.

Happy Thanksgiving...

Just wishing everyone a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!...and in case anyone is wondering, I AM NOT making a "I'm Thankful" list, so stop looking for one because, there will not be one. WHY? because, I have my reasons. Reasons which I will not disclose.

And to answer some questions to some comments from earlier posts...

1) Cake=DEATH X-(

2) Crowds=an uncomfortable Brad

3)Presents=Not wanted.

4)Parties no matter HOW big or small=Not liked by me...I am NOT a party person...as I have stated.

The End

Small Update For Those Who Follow...

Well, today is Tuesday...and that means that Thanksgiving is in two days...Nothing really exciting will go on I think...Just the same thing as the past X number of years. It was an average day at AGAPE...nothing exciting, nothing new. I did a lot of thinking today...more then usual. Things are still confusing in many areas...though one of the more confusing ones is still confusing...though now it is LESS confusing due to some talking. For which I am very grateful. In other weird news, People are trying to get me to have a Bithday Party...which REALLY irritates me. I tell them NO...but they CONTINUE to say yes. For some odd reason, they don't get that I don't want one. But I think they will try anyway.
Besides, I am not a party person.

For some reason, I feel as if I am being a horrible friend. I wish I knew why...

~End~

Les Miserables in Concert...ignore the subtitles...

Well, I love Les Miserables...especially this way of doing it. I have chosen two. songs that I like, and have shared them with you.



The confrontation (Colm Wilkinson as Valjean left; Philip Quast as Javert right)


WATCH THIS!!!


That is the BEST PART! The diversity is amazing. Anyway...Ciao all.

TARZAN!

I had to put this up...I love tarzan, and love phil collins' music.

Say VAT?

Well, today is Sunday, and it has been a good one. the song we sang in choir was one that I needed to hear (and sing.Yes, I am in the ADULT choir. Which is VERY COOL.) The song is called "I'M Thankful" The music is in the Jeep...which means the lyrics are in the Jeep....I will go get them...*Goes outside to get the music.* Ok...Here it is...

Verse 1:

Lord when I kneel to pray
And I try so very hard to say
How thankful I really am to you...
In my heart then I know
That my words could never ever show
What my life lived in thanks
Could say to you...

Chorus:

Yes I'm Thankful, I'm so thankful
I'll live my life so that all can see
That I'm thankful, I'm so thankful
For all you've done for me.
Verse 2:

Lord when I think of the price
That you paid for me on Calvary
For one so unworthy as I.
Then I realize there's no way
That I can repay;
Except to live my life in thanks to you.

[Repeat Chorus]

The End



Ok anyway, That was something that made me think...is that new? I won't expound upon what I thought. Anyway, onto bigger news.

Brad is now an OFFICIAL employee of Hannaford's. What is my position? The humble position of Cashier. I will update on this later maybe. But anyways...
I can't really think of anything new...OH YES! To the three families that regularly come read my blog...I special invites for you...I will bring them Tuesday. That is all for now.





In case you didn't know, I LOVE penguins...especially Rockhopper Penguins. Ever since I saw "The Pebble and the Penguin" GOOD MOVIE. And this in particular one...looks like a Penguin with an attitude :-D

Update and whatever else...

So, There is nothing to say...except that Interviews and orientations went smoothly...For those who know what that means, DON'T TELL ANYONE! IF I find out that there has been people telling certain OTHER people...Heads will roll...and I will be very upset at you...so be nice, and don't say anything.

In other news....Wait, there's other news? Ha...I must be going mad. Oh Yeah...

When commenting, please Identify yourself in some way...I don't like Anonymous people coming to my blog...If you DO use the Anonymous setting...please ID yourself.

Now there is no more news...for now. Nothing exciting at least...so yeah...

More Discoveries...

Well, during the course of the day, I have been thinking, (That's nothing new...) Whether this has anything to do with the series of events that have happened. But I have come to the conclusion that...what MAY ,( or may not,) be part of this is...That the wonderful thing called communication, is lacking...maybe the other party(ies) disagree with me. But over the course of the summer, communication has slowly dwindled to it's current state...and I miss it. I used to look forward to the fun and weird conversations we would have. But, they are no more...I don't blame the other party(ies). It isn't their fault. It's just one of those things that happens.

*Sigh* What am I doing? As soon as I sort a part out, it makes no sense again. I don't know how long I can stand this...I am lasting...for now. So, I guess that's good. Should I even be working on this? Who knows...Things have become very discouraging...but I am holding on...for what it is worth. I have a purpose...to find the answers...but even the lights are fading...

I hope that....I don't know...SOMETHING happens. Just sitting around doesn't sit well with me. (No pun intended.) I am a seeker...and will I find? I hope I do...so that this...this...THING can be put to rest. Whether for good...or whether for bad...

I feel really bad about this entire thing....from starting it, to keeping everyone out...

To whom it may concern:
I can't do this on my own...

Yawn...and an Update...

Well, to whom it may concern,

Last night...actually more like this morning, I DID get some sleep, from 6AM to 10 AM so I did get a wee bit o sleep. However, I did not get rest. Rest, and sleep are two different things though they are closely related.

Like I said to...I think it was Kiaya...or maybe it was Hannah...maybe even Abi, I forget. I said,
"My mind is doing backflips, but my body is sluggish." So my mind was racing last night...which is a comfort in its own way. Today I have resolved to go for a walk in me woods out back...as the song by Toby Keith goes..."Go for a walk, say a little prayer, take a deep breath of mountain air....it's time that I make time for that," That is what I need to do, I need to take a step back, and look at the entire thing from an outside perspective. Maybe it will give me a few ideas. Who knows.

This entire thing is annoying...but when all is said and done, I hope I can look back at it and laugh. It is one of thse times when you must go through trial by fire. You either come out burnt and disfigured, or you will come out stronger than you were before.

I wish I could go back in time, and erase the entire thing...it really is stupid...I don't know why I even brought it up. Too late for that now...now we must buckle up, hang tight, and weather out the storm...

Anyway, nothing has really changed since the last post...unless I have forgotten something...I don't think I have. One of the songs that I am listening to often during this time is "You Raise Me Up" by Josh Groban...It really describes the support and comfort of friends during this time. as the song goes..." You raise me up so I can stand on mountains...you raise me up , to walk on stormy seas...I am strong when I am on your shoulders, you raise me up...to more than I can be."

Even though, many of the friends are ignorant to the whole thing, they are willing to be there...that in and of itself is a comfort...well, now it is time for that walk...

~Me~

Words From an EXTREMELY Tired Person...

Well, today was school, and I was tired allll day...it makes me sad. Being tired is horrible. For the past two days, I have probably got a total of...5 hours sleep maybe? Gah!

Things have become confusing...too confusing for words, and I must sort through every thing, ONE PART AT A TIME. That is what is keeping me up. Trying to figure things out...but it doesn't add up. A+B=F? No, that's not right. That very equation has been keeping me up. I know there should be a C in there...SOMEWHERE. But I can't find it.

It has been a very confusing month. Brad does NOT like confusing, but it has been such. Everything is being challenged. AGAPE has been like a "Twilight Zone" for me... everything all out of focus. Maybe I am not making sense? who knows...

Certain recent events, have also been very...obscure? Unexplained? Who knows? But is the midst of it all, a light has shined through...partial relief has been granted. These events started off with a question...but out of that question, more replaced it...then came the A+B=?? equation...This is something I MUST work out soon, or I will never se sweet rest again.

But today, an interview happened with (KIJJHVJF:-Co) and, it went well...things have yet to be seen.

Back to the stuff I was rambling on about before...I am getting closer, (I think,) to the A+B=C it is only a matter of time, and close reading, and observation...and some dialougue.

How this will turn out...I don't know.


Bradfeeerd

Quotes pertaining to Brad...

"I have the soul of a gambler, but none of the instincts."

"It is the lack of order which makes us slaves; the confusion of today discounts the freedom of tomorrow."

"We have not passed that subtle line between childhood and adulthood until we have stopped saying, 'It got lost.' and start saying, 'I lost it.'"

"The way to love ANYTHING, is to realize that it might be lost."

"I've never been hurt by something I DIDN'T say."

"Youth is glorious, but it isn't a career."

Brad

Brad's stuff

People are shrouded in mystery...The closer I get to uncovering the secret, it becomes even more clouded. Things aren't the way they seem. I hate it that way. I hate being blind, I hate being ignorant. Everything is like seeing through a mist. Hazy and things don't seem real.

Things are becoming more confusing, and nothing is helping myunderstanding...There are dark clouds on the horizen...

You Raise Me Up...


When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

Israel Kamakawiwo'ole: The man and his music



This man is Israel Kamakawiwo'ole, or as his fans have named him, "Bruhdah IZ" Some of his top hits were "Somewhere Over the Rainbow", "In Dis Life", and "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star (In Hawaiian)"


The first two songs mentioned are on my old Xanga...go listen to them. Iz died when he was 38 due to his morbid obeseness. Yet he leaves behind a legacy that no one will forget. As long as there is music, there will be IZ.

The video in here is IZ in life...he was amazing. Listen to his music. Go to the wikipedia article on him....truly wonderful.

Brad

Mahalo all.

A Song and a Post...Not a Happy One Though.

For all I've been blessed with in my life
There was an emptiness in me
I was imprisoned by the power of gold
With one kind touch you've set me free

Chorus:

Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true.
In this life, I was loved by you.

For every mountain I have climbed
Every raging river crossed
You were the treasure that I longed to find
Without your love I would be lost.

(Repeat chorus)

I know that I won't live forever
But forever I'll be loving you.

(Repeat chorus)
~End~


Well, that was the song...here is the post...viewer discretion is advised.

WARNING:
Reading the following endangers you.
If you read the following, you may be eaten by ducks...slowly
You may anger Brad....will you risk it?
You may totally destroy the friendship you had with Brad....if you had one...
What are you willing to put on the line...

You made it this far, then I will tell you this, none of the above is true. It is put there to scrare away the others. Anyway...


Pretty much, The search for a Job is horrible, as always. People continue to get angry at me...as always. I continue to mess up...as always. What's new? What's new is this. Questions...


There are too many questions floating around in my mind...and the Answers I can't get myself. This is frustrating. These questions are very relevant with the near future. I have found out, that I hate the future. The future is dim, and clouded. I don't want the future to become the present. Why do I doubt things that are so apparent?

Many things are changing...not many for the better...Old friends are drifting farther apart...tension is created. New friendships are hard to come by...since after all, I am a loner....no one likes them. they are too secretive. And NO one likes a secretive person. Id there was ONE person who actually showed some interest...the burden would be lifted. But for now, I am weighed with the burden a former life, a life that wants to set free.

I wish people could tell me their problems...that way, I wouldn't have to look at my own. I would be able to help someone in need. That is something I am good at...

That is all for now.

AWRIGHT!

Well, this do be a happy post. I have found out that I have been accepted for LCW (Leadership Challege Weekend) At Norwich University. I am doing an Overnight the day before LCW starts. During the overnight stay, I stay with a student, and follow them through the next day.

You select your lifestyle, (Corps of Cadets or Civilian) Your academic major, (For me it is Criminal Justice.) And you end up with a host that matches your interests.

So, I am happy about that.

To the left is their logo. Go Here for the wikipedia article.







Below, is a view of the campus...very nice in the fall. It is in Northfield, Vermont. I will be taking pictures when I go.
















I am also going to their Vetran's Day Open House. I will be taking pictures then as well. So, all if good...for now.

Bradfeeerd and Muergo

>:--)

Riverdance!

Well, all, as some of you know, I am having a Riverdance night. What is Riverdance? Check this out!




That my friends is Riverdance! I love riverdance, more than Duct Tape. O_O scary, I know. But Muergo loves it too. For those who haven't met Muergo, my henchman...

>:--) That is him

Anyway, riverdance. Riverdance was created by this man,



Michael Flatley. My time is up for now...but keep an eye out for more Riverdance updates...

~Brad and >:--)~

P.S. You can take the Irish out of the dance, but you CAN'T take the dance out of the Irish...

????

Hello, there isn't much to blog about, well, there is, but I am not going to post about it, because it is stupid. If I get enough interest, than I might blog about it.

Anyway, right now, life is Blah. Everything about it is Blah. Even blah is Blah. Someone got extremely angry at me for being me. Tough luck on them.

School life is OK. Nothing exciting is happenening there. Just the same stuff, always the same. Friends are OK as well...I guess. Havent heard from any lately.

Like I said, nothing to blog about. At least, nothing that matters anyway.

~Me~

Quotes, Sayings, and Tim Burton Day!

MP: "BRAD, YOU'RE AWESOME!"
Me: "I'M AWESOME!"

"Search the shadows...for in them lie the answer." ~Me~

"The bloody directions say that we take a bloody left at bloody Kenoza. OY!" ~Me~


Abi: "I'm sorry."
Me: "What for?"
Abi: I dunno; I just thought that I ought to say it."

Zeke: "So Brad, are you able to drive? Because if you are not, you can find a place to crash for the night."
Me: "I know, it's called 'In the front seat on the side of the road.'"
Zeke: "Haha, No, I meant at my house."
Me: " I should be Ok. If not, you hear about it on the news."
Abi: "That's not very encouraging."
Me: "True, but you must have confidence in me."
Abi: Alright."
After a few silent moments...
Me: "Shun the nonbeliever."
Abi: "I can't believe you just said that."


Anyway, Tim Burton Day was..."Bloody, Flaming, Awesome." We saw "The Nightmare Before Christmas", and "Edward Scissorhands". The ride down was good, except for the directions being messed up. The events themselves were a blast. Having tocos, and awesome rice. THANKS MRS. GREGAN! "Along with Forgive Me Cookies."

After all was said and done, we said goodbye to our wonderful host. The ride back was awesome as well. Kiaya talking about...whatever. I can't remember. Then there was Abi TRYING to stay awake. ;-)

We dropped Kiaya off at her house, everthing was silent. There was Abi drifting in between the waking world and the land of sleep. Eventually we came back to the house of Zeke and Abigail.
After this, I was on my own.

To be riding with Zeke and Abi, was a High honor and a joy, as well as being the method of going home for Kiaya. I hope we are able to do it again...for something.

Well, that is all from me. I hope all those that attended are WIDE AWAKE. :-P

Brafeeerd