A song.

Well, since today is my birthday, I will let you see (and hopefully hear,) a song that means a lot to me...Here goes.

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
And never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through, through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
The light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

This song really relates to me...how? I think this song says it all.

Blah

*sigh*

another year come and gone. My18th day of birth comes in less than two hours. And things are annoying, confusing, plain bloody blah.

That is all I have to say. Want me to explain? Maybe I will sometime. But by that time, it may be too late.

Thr3e days in review.

Well, like I said in my previous post, I am not dead...yet. Anyway, to start off, I will start with what happened on Monday.

Since Monday was Christmas, my siblings woke up early...much to my dismay. Sooo, I had to wake up with them at 7AM...I was hopig to sleep till 9-10ish. But I wasn't able to, and that stinks.

Anyway, for gifts, I got...

-the newst Josh Groban CD, along with a Market Basket truck...these were probably my most favorite. :-D especialy the truck.

-The entire first season of "The Muppet Show"

-The entire first season of "Numb3rs"

-A new digi. camera

-A BUCH of gift cards to various places.

-Island Mango Yankee Candle


Then the family went up north to see relatives. Got a call from a dear friend, (THis always makes me happy...unless the call is for a UNhappy state of nature.) Anyway, I opened more gifts from family, and then did a "White Elephant" Yankee Swap. Then I went home. Thus ended the first day...and Brad was well...not extremely happy...but content...or stoic.

Then came day two. This would be Tuesday...or two days ago. Well, this was my favorite of the three days thus far. I went to the mall to waste giftcards...saw MANY people from AGAPE...among them was Brad G. (The ONLY Brad with a nice smile.) Stayed at the mall till noonish. The left for Barnes and Nobles; after moseying around for a while, I meet Becca M. We talked for almost two hours, then got a wonderful coffee. THen moseyed again...soon after, I see a Narf speaking with Becca, I slowly wander over there wthout being noticed. And just stand there...like I do best. After another few minutes, comes the Mustard Seed. Seeing this vehicle about to enter the parking lot, I stop. Stare. Then continue wandering. While wandering, I sense npt one but TWO Narfs trying to surprise me...but they fail...Hen we say hello and whatnot, and we go our seperate ways looking for books, while I stalk people and meke them jump...like I do best. After about an hour, we decide to go get lunch at the mall. The traffic was quite heavy. I eventually lost me appetite. After fighting off three gandmothers, I finally get a parking spot. I weave and dodge my way through mall shoppers, and meet the rest of the group,and I see an old friend, Kristen. Seeing her in good health was good.

Anyway, everyone else got food. I didn't. THen we all went to BB. After walking around, Abigail says, that she doesn't feel so well, and says she will be at the food court. Being the nice watchful friend I am, I follow her with Hannah. After sitting down and waiting on Zeke, we finally head to the G Household and watch Lady in the Water. An Ok movie...could have been better, but a nice movie. After seeing that along with some clips of other movies, including an airplane one that Mr. G INSISTED I watched. :-) we played Boggle...and I did well, thanks to me awesome "thinking Cap" Around 11 PM, I had to go, so after goodbes, I left. The drive home was thoughtful. I thought about/of certain person...and how much this person meant to me....caffeine and late hours does that to you. Anyway, I arrived at home, and read a bit. Then around 3:45...I slept...not really...I was restless, and when I did sleep...I had unusual dreams...Then I woke...and it was Wednesday...at 9AM.

Wednesday was yesterday....the highlight? I worked...with an Irish accent. I actually had a customer ask if I was Irish...I laughed at that. After work I finally had a meal. Then went to churuch. Then went home...and did stuff.

That is all that I can think of.

I now have a semi-favorite song from the new CDAbigail gave me...I will post the lyrics below...

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved


That song really describes me..ina fasion. (Does that make sense?) If you ask, maybe I will explain later. :-)

well that is all...I will try to put the song up...if I can. OH! since people like to leave messages, here is my schedule for the rest of the week.

Thurs: 5-9PM
Fri: 12-6PM
Sat:6-12Noon

Well, thanks for reading...Ciao all!

Bradfeeerd

YAWN

Hey all....I am not dead. So that is good.

I work from 12:15-5:30PM. So leave messages...if you please. They make me happy. Well, I know this is not much of an update, but later today or tomorrow I will give a better one.

Bye all.

Bradfeeerd

I hate vacations...

Yeah, I hate vacations...there is never anything to do. Just a series of Hurry up and waits. And thus, 1) Even though I don't show it, I hate waiting, and I hate surprises.

Anyway, life has been plodding along. Nothing really exciting happened today. I went shopping for gifts in the rain. That was enjoyable and soothing. I went to a Market Basket. (SHOCK AND AWE! O_O) I got limes. Limes are cool.

I tried to plan a get together, but that isn't working out I guess. -sigh-

Christmas is coming soon.(insert srcastic "YAY" here.) I wish this vacation would come and leave. Like I said earlier, I have nothing to do. And I am bored out of my mind.

Brad

Translations of Songs, and a new song for "H"

Hello all...Due to the popular request, I will put up the English Lyrics to "Si Volvieras A Mi" THe song is a little "mushy" but the words and music flows so well together that it is a wonderful song. Here they are...

Si Volvieras A Mi

How to survive
How to calm my thirst
How can I continue without you
How can I jump without a net [to catch me]
With that farewell so wild and cruel
You hurt me to the core
I remain stuck in time
And my heart is a desert

Oh if you would come back to me
The sun moves through 1000 spring times
If you returned to me
It would be miracle with each kiss you give me
But today you’re gone
And there is no turning back

What is there after you?
More than these tears
Like the rain in a garden
Little music in end
I could try but I would fall
Today I say “goodbye” on bended knees
That by good of the two
I sense the emptiness in you
I’m crazy that I am dying of love

Oh if you could come back to me
The sun moves through 1000 spring times
If you returned to me
It would miracle each time you see me.
But today you are gone
And there is no return for us

And, I am an undone hurricane,
The fire and fury of a volcano
That doesn’t turn off
I was like a fine wine
Slave to you
I am no longer able

Oh if you come back to me,
if you come back
If you returned me,
I would be happy once again
But today you are gone
And there is no turning back.

[END]

That is the song. Now...SOMEONE says she doesn't like Josh Groban...well, maybe after listening to some English songs, she would come to appreciate him more. Today, I am putting up his song, "To Where You Are" This is the song that started me on my journey to obecome a "Grobanite"...I hope you all enjoy.

Singing, Drama, and a Success

Well, The Cantata was a SUCCESS! We had a pack house, once again. So this was wonderful. I even got to see the familiar faces of Mrs. M, Dan M, Dave M, Sam M, Tim R, Kailyn C, and Devon C. So, that was quite a treat. Maura did EXCELLENT in the Drama. Speaking of Drama, the whole cast did very good. It was awesome to see them in their costumes. The Songs were also good. THe best I think were the last two. These are our power songs. EVERYONE loves them. They are also fun to sing. Mwa Ha...but now the Cantata is over till next year.

Anyway, today is Monday, and that means another day of fun-filled work. Another long shift. 12-7PM. If anyone would like to leave a message feel fee to do so...they keep me going.

And I love this quote.

Frodo: I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.
Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other forces at work in this world Frodo, besides the will of evil. Bilbo was meant to find the Ring. In which case, you were also meant to have it. And that is an encouraging thought.

That quote is awesome.

Well, that is all for now.

~Bradfeeerd~

Song of the Week...

This week's Song of the Week is...

"Si Volvieras A Mi" sung by the amazing Josh Groban. I will have the lyrics below.


¿Como sobrevivir?
¿Como calmar mi sed?
¿Como seguir sin ti?
¿Como saltar sin red?
Con ese adios tan salvaje y cruel
Me desojaste la piel
No hay eternidad en final se quedo
Y un desierto es mi corazon

Ay si volvieras a mi
Encenderia el sol mil primaveras
Si regresaras por mi
Seria un milagro cada beso que me dieras
Pero hoy te vas
Y no hay vuelta atras

¿Que habra despues de ti?
Mas que estas lagrimas
Si hasta la lluvia en el jardin
Toca musica sin fin
Sombria y tragica
Hoy de rodillas le pido a Dios
Que por el bien de los dos
Algo en tu pecho se quiebre al oir
A este loco que se muere de amor

Ay si volvieras a mi
Encenderia el sol mil primaveras
Si regresaras por mi
Seria un milagro cada beso que me dieras
Pero hoy te vas
Y no hay vuelta atras

Y desataste un huracan
Fuego y furia de un volcan
Que no se apaga
Como olvido que fui
Esclavo de ti
Ya no puedo mas

Ay si volvieras a mi vida
Si volvieras
Si regresaras por mi
Seria feliz otra vez
Pero hoy te vas
Y no hay vuelta atras


I love this song...and I hope you do as well...enjoy all.

Saturday...Work, Jones Soda, and a Merry Christmas

Well,

Work is fun when you start at 7AM. No one is there and the Cashiers have fun. ;-) Mwa HA. Anyway, today I had the early shift...not too bad. Saw three people I knew. And one person who came through my line last week came through mine again. And started asking me the same question as last week. "Are you related to George W?" That was interesting. Well, After two or three hours or so, I went off to break. i was pulled over by a customer who asked where a particular Item was, I said that I would go find someone who knew...( I didn't. It was one of those weird obsure items that I've never heard of.) Well, I couldn't find anyone, and he got quite mad...fortunately, I found someone from Grocery, and he helped the poor man...that was interesting.

Today, is also my Youth group's Christmas celebration...and Yankee Swap. For a gift, I bought a Dessert Jones Soda set. Key Lime Pie, Apple, and Blueberry are a few to name.

And since this is the week before Christmas, I have started to say it...every now and again, not too often, because it might sound repetitive and you wouldn't want it to lose it's special touch.

Well, that is all for now.

I will see thees all later.

*Yawn*...Work, Eggnog, and a iFiesta de Angela!

Hello all,

This week has been a rough one...but yesterday, (Thursday) was a wonderful break from the week. It started normally...sort of, I woke up a bit later then usual. Then went to school and saw the two lovely birthday girls, Abigail and Angela. Said Happy Birthday to both and gave Abigail her presents. She is pleased. All is well. Then Candy Cane GrAms are distributed and created. This is fun...except when you have NO IDEA who the people are...this can be frustrating. Anyway, classes met, and ended. Then I am invited to celebrate Angela's birthday at her house. I politely accept the invitation. Then I go home, get directions, were off in the distance portion. I took me quite a while to get there...and with the directions messed up, by the third time I looked for the bloody road to take, guess who drives up next to me? Zeke and Abi in thier Ark. So, since I have had little luck in finding the road I was looking for, I followed them. And what a drive that was. ;-)

Well, at the celebration of Angela's birthday, I met many relatives and a few friends. Zeke, Abi and I were the only ones from AGAPE. But we enjoyed ourselves immensly. Around 10:50 I left and had a quiet drive back.

Now today is Friday...and that means work, for which I leave in seven minutes. Another long shift awaits me...12-7PM Can't wait. Well, that is all for now. Oh...and I highly suggest that you all try the Pumkin Eggnog...it is delicious.

That is all. Ciao.

Bradfeeerd

Song of the Week...

The song of the week is...

"I Can't Help Fallinng In Love With You" By none other than the King, Elvis Presley.
Enjoy folks...

P.S. The song is located underneath the links to all of me friends...just to let you know.

I'm Alive...

Just letting everyone know that I am back...I am in extreme pain...but am enjoying it...so...I hope to talk or see you all soon...


Bradfeeerd

I'm a failure...

*sigh* I have failed in a particular area of life...and it really hurts. I wish that I could do something...It's horrible to hear that you have failed...but why? Why did I fail...I try...I fight to succeed in this area...I thought I was...but the truth came out...I have failed...and who knows what will happen next?

A short update

Hello all my readers, friends, and random people...Today is Wednesday...work comes again....12:15-5:30. An easy shift. Then after that, Church...Church is a nice thing to have in the middle of the week. It is like a support night...We get an extra boost that helps us get through the rest of the week. Then comes tomorrow. Tomorrow, is A little bit of AGAPE...I will be going to one class, then leaving for Norwich University for 4 days. That should be interesting...if I take pictures, I will put them up...maybe.


Well, I don't really know what else to say...except that if you have nothing to do and you are in a nice mood, you can leave a message on my cell phone when I am at work...messages make me happy. :-D Sooooo...yeah. That is all I can think of saying...for now.

Brad

Helplessness is a controling monster...

Well, today I finished my first full day as Cashier...woo-hoo *Blow noisemaker...THrow confetti...* >_> Did both normal and Express Lanes...nothing special happened...During my break, I talked to my Noob Cashier buddy and talked in the rain. We talked about everything and nothing. We swapped training stories and weird customers. She told me the story of how one person sounded like Kermit the Frog...Very interesting. It is good to have someone who is going through the same things as you. Then my fellow noob cashier and I teamed up in a lane...me bagging, and she cashiering. My supervisors are awesome too.

Aftr work, I stayed outside for a while and listened to the rain...very nice. Next week, I start the long shifts...Monday I work 12noon to 8pm...that should be interesting...One of the cool things, is that, I have yet to hear a annoying song played throughout the store. Once, I was humming a song, and in the middle, that exact same song played...funky. Three Phil Collins songs played today...that made me happy.

I like going to the break room...it is quiet and had good free food. But the walk there is the best part. After I sign out of my register, I go through the produce section which has many loverly smells and sights, and after that, I go through the Bakery which also has many wonderful smells...then through the COFFEE area...I pause and take a DEEP breath. Then I continue and through the back area...very cool, but cold. Then I make it to the peaceful area of the break room...

I usually don't like to take break...I don't know what to do for all of that time. Usually by the time I go out to my car to look for missing calls on my cell phone, I have a whole 13 minutes to spare...so I grab a drink from the vending machine outside, and wait till 5 minutes till break time is done..and I wait by the time clock till time is done....then I rush back to my post...and resume cashiering.

Well, that is my life so far...I know a few people...and am getting to know more.

Tomorrow, I go to the SATs...>_< I HATE the SAT...why? because it has math...and I hate math with a passion. That is all that is interesting for tomorrow...so....yeah.
It is almost Dec 2nd...another 7 minutes.


It is annoying when helplessness sets in..it is a controlling monster. We can't do anything about it...when people very close to me suffer, I suffer too. Not in the same way, but I still suffer.

Well, I think that is all I have to say.

Ciao.